I am flawed and that's OK...!!!

I am a person who is flawed head to toe.
I am not ashamed of it and will let everybody know..!!
I am the strangest and most mystical thing.. 
I cannot act, dance or sing!!      


I love to sleep and I am conveniently lazy.
I can cry and laugh at the same time, yes, you can call me crazy..!!
I fall on the plain ground in my flats.
My teeth are tinier than that of rats!!

I can name a thousand flaws in me and they still grow..
But that's me and that's what I want to show!!
But if I really search, contemplate and glance around.
Is anything flawless? 
Honestly, what actually is 100% sound?



Hiding my flaws doesn't help me flourish,
I want to accept myself and cherish!
In the world of pretense, I get judged for not being perfect,
But show me just one person who has no defect!!


I know constantly getting criticized can be tough but, I want to break those bars.
I am more than enough and beautiful in my scars..!!
This is me and that's how I slay.
Yes, I am flawed, but that's absolutely okay!!

Prince Charming

I am not a damsel in distress..
nor a beautiful princess..
I am not some Cinderella who lost her shoe..
I never even believed fairy tales were true!!

The description of prince charming caught my attention..
I questioned the way they would mention..
Is prince charming really about money, strength and looks?
doesn't he have characteristics other than mentioned in the books?

Then entered this charming man in my life..
A man who had guts to make me his wife..
My prince charming has a heart of gold..
Someone who has empathy towards everyone, young or old..
 
My prince charming gives me that extra push when I tremble..
he has great values and is extremely humble..
My prince charming doesn't command but stands by my side..
he made me believe in myself when my inner strength died!!

My prince charming takes care of me when I am ill,
he also lets me pay the bill!!
He yells and corrects me when I am wrong..
But he can also make me blush just by singing a song.

As you grow up you know life is not a dream..
All that glitters is not gold as it may seem..
 You don't need a handsome hunk with a fancy car...
All you need is a man who loves you the way you are!!


 

The two of me

I may seem calm, happy and fine..

there is an inner me that will never align..

There is a constant criticism for whatever I want to be..

I am not just dealing with self, I am dealing with the two of me!!

I create my own barriers, I draw my own line..

expect to achieve everything, expect everything to be fine..

I am my own critic before the society labels me..

the compulsion of perfection doesn't let me be...   

I turn my ability into a question mark..

I put off the fire even before a spark..

I fight with my demons but let them win..

The other me is not comfortable in my own skin..

Nostalgia!

Remember, when we hated to sleep?

Or when we were picky of the things we ate?

Remember, when summer holidays were a thing?

Or when we played house-house for our play date?

Remember, when mom packed our boxes with yum food for school?

Or when cartoon pictures on your bags and bottles were cool?

Remember, we learned to add, subtract, and multiply?

Never did we imagine the way "time will fly by" !!

Remember, where only homework was the struggle?

Or when you first experienced the joy of soap water bubble?

Remember, when you waited for school picnics every year?

Or when asking permission was the only fear?

Remember, when playing cassettes on tape recorders gave us joy?

Or when cartoon network played our favorites tom & jerry, scooby doo or popeye!!

Remember,when rain meant paper boat?

Or how cute we looked in that tiny little rain coat?

Remember, the last time when you actually were carefree ?

when you didn't worry about getting a job or a degree?

Those days are gone when we were insanely sane..

But once in a while, its good to go down the memory lane!!!

                                     

Calming the inner chaos!!!

       In our busy lives, we are constantly running around doing a million things. We fight, we hustle, we chase but still with a calm on our face. Rarely do we try to calm the inner chaos, the multiple questions we ask ourselves within a day, the multiple times we feel like "Ok that's it! I am done". Its a lot harder to calm the chaos inside than solving any problem in the outer world.

     Unintentionally a lot of times we find ourselves hustling in the mind, You can’t explain it. You are easily irritated, you don’t have the zest for the things that used to make you smile. Those are signs you’re experiencing a chaotic inner state or simply being trapped in a place mentally. We hide it deep within from the world in fear of exposing our true weakness. This is when you need to have an appointment with yourself. 

     Life can be truly hectic, even chaotic, if we don’t stop now and then to take a few minutes for ourselves. With the invention of computers, mobiles and internet, our work/personal lives were supposed to get easier, but it’s gotten busier than ever before! TAKE A BREAK!! Small or big but we all need to stop for a moment and take a break.

   A break can be anything from a happy nap to an impulsive sudden vacation to Goa!  Anything that calms your mind from extreme emotions. Give yourself a happy treat mentally. You deserve a break not only from your work, your routine or your overwhelming society but from yourself, your hustle and chaos. 

   Life is a very busy mission and we have the courage to gain everything. But, sometimes you just need to take a step back, relax, speak up your mind  and treat yourself. Sometimes, the best thing you can do to yourself is "JUST BREATHE"!!
  

 

Lamhe...

Kabhi khamosh se..
Kabhi udaas se..
Kabhi hasi se..
Kabhi khushi se...
                                                               

Kabhi kisi ke pyar me..
Kabhi intzaar me.
Kabhi tadapte dil ki pukaar me...
Kabhi kisike inkaar me..

Kabhi sehme huee..
Kabhi thame hue..
Kabhi bhagte hue..
Kabhi raftaar me..

 Kabhi berang shaamo me.
Kabhi udaas kali raato me..
Kabhi din ke khalipan me.
Kabhi chupi nigaaho me
Na jaane kitne rang hai in lamho ke  💙

Dar lagta hai....

Dar lagta hai har lamha tujhe khone ka,\

Dar lagta hai har pal kuch galat hone ka..

Dar lagta hai ki ek din sab badal jayega,

Dar lagta hai ki ek din ye pyar kam pad jayega..       
Baat bharose ki nahi haalat ki hai, 

Dar lagta hai ek din halaato ke saamne hosla kam pad jayegaa..

Janti hu ye dar be-buniyaad hai,

 par dar lagta hai ki ye kahi sach hogaya to mere paas jeene ke liye kuch nahi reh jayegaa.

One day...!!!

One day everything will end..
I'll be no one to you, not even a friend..

One day you will not need me anymore,          

I'll silently walk away through your door...

One day my feelings will die,
Nothing will matter neither your betrayal or lie...

One day I'll look back and laugh at my stupidity,
It wasn't meant to be, it wasn't eternity!

Unheard Scream!

The happy girl lost her grace,
As tears run down her face..
She forgot who she was, and her dreams to chase..
She felt broken, worthless and disgrace. .!!

As the blue sky faded to black,
Her wings of hope vanished from her back..
Darkness has now filled her heart,
All her kindness now fell apart!!

She screams but cannot be heard...
She lost her speech and her vision is blurred.

With her tear stained cheeks and blood shot eyes..
Losing her strength, from within she dies..