Move on..!!

Once in a lifetime everyone goes through heartbreak,
the pain of being abandoned, the pain that no one can take..!!  

The feeling of being excluded from the rest,
the uncertainty of not knowing what’s next..!! 

But the scars you hold are necessary,
you get them from the love that does not tarry..!! 
Take time to think not only twice but many times over,
think of something that causes peace instead of anger..!!

Pain and hopelessness are only in one's mind,
They may be wiped out, so leave them both behind..!!
No one else can cure but, you yourself alone,
Understanding and helping yourself takes you out from that zone..!!  

Getting out of the blue is easier said than done,

 But with you on your side, impossible thing is none..!!
  Smile the sweetest smile and the world smiles too,
  Cry the saddest moan, you shall find it's only you..!!

You will wake up one day and this won’t matter anymore,
you will no longer weep for that closed door..!!

So, go on, live your life the way it should be,
 let go of the sorrows and you shall be free..!!

I am Alone..!!

Alone with my thoughts deep and dry,
with the slide show in my head passing by..!! 

Alone in my room, alone in my bed,
but I am not alone in my heart or head..!!

Alone with thoughts I cannot share,
people might leave me, so I don’t dare..!!

I feel alone, in this world of pretense,
where people talk about things that don’t make sense…!!

 

Alone with people all around,
loneliness is the only thing I’ve found..!!

Alone in my sadness and my tears,
I’ve mastered the skills to hide my fears..!!

Now, I have no one to call my own,
amongst the crowd I walk alone..!!

Yes, I Am An Introvert

     "I am an introvert". I know this now and I am not ashamed of it. Some days you'd never guess I am introverted, others it's pretty obvious to see that I am one. I'm awkward when I need to talk to someone or start a conversation. Addressing or being part of a big group of people for a long period of time drains my energy, but there is always a big thumbs up to one-on-one conversations. Most people don't know this, but I have to mentally prepare myself to talk to you.

         As a kid I’ve grown up thinking that something is wrong with me. Brought up in a loud middle class Indian family where people don’t understand the concept of being introverted, I was always questioned things like, “Are you okay?”, “Why are you so quiet?” or “Do you hate people or something?” or “It’s rude when you don’t speak up in a gathering”. Obviously, I had no answer.  I would rarely  engage with the other children of my age. I was always off to the side somewhere, playing with my own toys and doing my own thing. When I pushed myself really hard to make a small talk, I made a fool out of myself and that made me really sad. It was only in college I realized that, its okay to be the way I am. It's ok if I don’t feel like interacting with other people and a big “Thank You” to each of the few friends that I have who , accepted me the way I am.

      Although I am quiet, once I get comfortable, it’s a whole another story. I can be the most talkative, outgoing person while in my ideal environment, but at any moment, I can go from having the time of my life to, "please, get me the hell out of here!" If I know you, or you’re super extroverted with a conversation and you’re pretty much the one leading it, I can handle it. But if you’re expecting me to lead the conversation or have a smooth one, it’s not going to happen

      To be happy means accepting who you are. If you love surrounding yourself with a huge group of friends and attending every party you can, great! But it’s equally ok to prefer spending time alone, or just staying at your home reading a book or sometimes doing nothing. So next time somebody tells you it’s not normal to spend so much time alone, or can’t understand why you would turn down a plan for a cozy time on the sofa in your PJ’s, tell them, 
      “Hey, I’m an introvert, and that’s okay!" Because it really is.

Its your choice!

Feeling lost and lonely with each passing day?
there my friend, you need to find a way!

Its all about choices that you have you make..
Its all about chances that you have to take!!

Its all about living in the past or living now,
Its all about making it work or just wondering how?

Its always a toss between faith and doubt,
Its all about hiding these feelings or shouting it out!!

Its all about choosing to give up or getting back on track,
Its all about accepting your defeat or fighting it back!!

Upto you to let go of everything or to stay,
listen to your gut, you will find a way!!

 

Independence Day!

Today 70 years ago, India became a free bird,
Many battles were fought to shoo away the British herd!!
Today as we recall and pray for lives all lost,
Surely our freedom came at a heavy cost!!

Since then, our country fighting all odds stays,
Seven decades have passed since slavery days!
Worldwide our country’s power is at peak,
Development, peace and harmony is what we seek!

As there are highs and lows in a tide,
our country also has its own dark side..!
Regionalism, terrorism or female infanticide..
Because of poverty and distress our farmers die!!

Despite all the muddle our tricolour still flies high..
To never let it down, is what we should strive!!
Years back called “snake charmer’s land- India !
Today its fondly known as brand INDIA!!

Jai Hind !!

Ek baar ulajhna chahti hu..!!

Ek baar ulajhna chahti hu tumse, sab kuch suljhane ke liye. 
Shayad ye doori zaruri hai dobara paas aane ke liye..

Taqdeer Hume kaha le jaati hai ye to pata nahi.. 
Ghanto sochna padta hai aaj tumse baat karne ke ek bahane ke liye. 

Tha jab tu meri zindagi me tab khayal kabhi na aaya Judaai ka,
Shayad isilye man aaj bhi nahi maanta door jane ke liye..

Kaash itna waqt hota mere paas ki tujhe aur waqt de paau..
Par kya Karu jab tune hi keh diya chale Jane ke liye

Old pictures!

Looking at our old pictures reminds me of how colourful our lives used to be,
They have the amazing places we had been to, most importantly they have we.

They remind me of our promises of visiting those places again together,
Little that we knew our lives are going to change altogether.

They remind me of how I bugged you each time for a different pose,
That magic has left us now, those emotions froze.

But to calm down the hustle in my mind, I have a delete option to my rescue,
But there is no way to delete them from my memory queue!!

Maybe some years from now,
I'll smile at you across a street,
 You smile back with nothing weighing on your shoulders,
 And I'll be content that our troubles we have beat!

Claustrophobic

Lost in my thoughts, trying to find a way..
There is a lot to do , a lot to say.

A lot that my heart wants to scream out loud,
My brain is trying to resolve the never ending feud..

I don't recognize the person I have become over years,
Don't know whether this is making me weak or helping me fight my fears.

Everything heals with time says everyone,
But how to fight this passing time tells none..

Trying to hide my insecurities, a mask I have to wear,
Am I fooling myself and being unfair ?

I feel claustrophobic, there is no exposure,
I have to accept that somethings in life end with no closure!

Changes!!

In a world filled with changes each and every day..
I feel, I am being judged for what I do and say.. !!

I remember back to teddies and fun time at parks..
when I didn't worry about others remarks.. !!

Now looking in the mirror I see to my surprise..
a completely different person with fake charm in my eyes.. !!

I miss being the little carefree girl of my mom and dad..
I find myself lost, gloomy and sad.. !!

This is not the end, there much to arrive..
day after day, I am just growing old and trying to survive! ! !