Thursday, 13 June 2019
Dar lagta hai....
Dar lagta hai har lamha tujhe khone ka,\
Dar lagta hai har pal kuch galat hone ka..

Dar lagta hai ki ek din sab badal jayega,
Dar lagta hai ki ek din ye pyar kam pad jayega..
Baat bharose ki nahi haalat ki hai,
Dar lagta hai ek din halaato ke saamne hosla kam pad jayegaa..
Janti hu ye dar be-buniyaad hai,
par dar lagta hai ki ye kahi sach hogaya to mere paas jeene ke liye kuch nahi reh jayegaa.
One day...!!!
One day everything will end..
I'll be no one to you, not even a friend..
One day you will not need me anymore,
I'll silently walk away through your door...
One day my feelings will die,
Nothing will matter neither your betrayal or lie...
One day I'll look back and laugh at my stupidity,
It wasn't meant to be, it wasn't eternity!
Unheard Scream!
The happy girl lost her grace,
As tears run down her face..
She forgot who she was, and her dreams to chase..
She felt broken, worthless and disgrace. .!!
As the blue sky faded to black,
Her wings of hope vanished from her back..
Darkness has now filled her heart,
All her kindness now fell apart!!
She screams but cannot be heard...
She lost her speech and her vision is blurred.
With her tear stained cheeks and blood shot eyes..
Losing her strength, from within she dies..
Wednesday, 14 November 2018
Being an adult!!
We all knew that we would grow up one day..
We knew that we had to face it someday..
We knew that we had to face it someday..
Everyone said there would be tough times, but you will be okay..
Nobody mentioned everything comes up with a cost that you have to pay..!!
There is an overwhelming stress you have to face...
Willingly or unwillingly, you are a part of rat race...
You are caught in shackles of need that look like lace...
Between money and dreams you don't know what to chase...!!
Every mistake you make feels like you are getting stabbed with knife..
The decisions you make, would affect the rest of your life..
Between money and dreams you don't know what to chase...!!
Every mistake you make feels like you are getting stabbed with knife..
The decisions you make, would affect the rest of your life..
You are caught up in the situations where you don't know what to do..
Its terrifying to know that "you can be rejected for being you..!"
Its frightening to realize that when you grow up you are on your own..
Into a world that's still unknown..
Despite this fear, you wake up everyday and fight..
In this world, you are your own knight..!!
Believe in your heart, keep your spirits alive,
Don’t doubt yourself, you will survive.
Things can go wrong and make you feel low,
It’s good not to dwell, you can let it go...!!
Wednesday, 10 October 2018
Things we don't talk about..!!
"Chilhood Abuse" as we discuss, is been limited to physical and sexual trauma a child goes through. While we discuss about these issues, we often overlook an equally damaging and common kind of abuse - emotional abuse.
Emotional abuse can be of various kinds like emotional neglect, verbal abuse, demotivation, shame & humiliation etc. A child absorbs and learns what is been taught or what he/she observes around them. There is no good or a bad child by birth. There are many people who are hesitant or unwilling to talk about their childhood because of the chaos they have gone through. Painful childhood memories are typically tied to distressing feelings
such as abnormality, inferiority, self-doubt and shame as the child grows up. However, memories of these past situations and
events can sneak up on a person in the present during moments of “felt”
threat or vulnerability. These emotions are intense and hard to explain.
Each member in a family has their own strengths, their own struggles, their own
point of view. They have their own personalities, their own fears, their
own hopes. Each member also has a unique relationship with every other
member, too. Its important for the adults to understand what the kid really thinks. Childhood trauma does not come in a single package. Its the series of incidents good or bad that grooms the personality. On top of abuse or neglect, denial heaps more hurt upon the child by requiring the child to alienate herself/himself from reality and her/his own experience.
As children, such individuals usually feel insufficiently cared for,
supported, or respected. They feel they have no “voice” in their family,
that their wants and needs are regularly overruled or shamed by their elders. Four out of five families also have the obnoxious habit of comparing their kid with others which again leads to jealousy and aggression. Trust me no child needs this kind of negativity in their childhood. There are always ways to make your child the best, comparison is certainly not the way.
When child with such emotions grow up, their behavior reflects in their further relationships, with peers, friends etc. They might grow up to be aggressive, angry or they might also grow up to be emotionless as their feelings were never valued. Remember that the purpose is not to dwell on the past but to go back to it for the purpose of re-visioning it. As an adult, there may be nothing more important than evolving
a positive self-regard, and seeing yourself as competent, worthy, and
lovable. If you still view yourself in a variety of negative ways, you
owe it to yourself to take another look at your past, and to
discover joyfully that you’re not who your adults or society prompted you to believe you are. You are what you want to be!!
Thursday, 8 March 2018
Stop Female Foeticide !!!
Everyone was happy that I was coming,
a little tissue when they found out, still developing..!
Mumma and Papa were dancing in joy,
they thought it’s better if I was a boy!!
Mumma was treated like a queen,
She was now pampered like she has ever been!!
Papa was planning how everything should be blue,
but I was a girl and they had no clue!!
Days passed, nights passed and now few months were over,
but till now they didn’t know what was my gender!
mumma’s food was my food to eat,
the first music I listened to was her heartbeat!!
Anything can go wrong as stated in law of Murphy,
Soon I was in the ward of Sonography!!
I was happy and cozy in my mumma’s womb,
little did I know, I’ll be in a tomb..!!
Everybody was waiting for the news of wonder,
mumma’s heart was beating like thunder!!
“It’s a girl”! the nurse exclaimed,
papa was ashamed and mumma was blamed!!
They said we don’t want her, lets go for abortion,
It was my life and I wasn’t asked any permission!!
I consoled myself and kept quiet like a good girl,
I saw a pair of hands towards me swirl!!
All I remember is the thirsty look of the sharp knife,
Eagerly waiting to end my dear life!!
Mumma and papa were brave enough to see me die,
at least they would have kissed me a good bye!!
a little tissue when they found out, still developing..!
Mumma and Papa were dancing in joy,
they thought it’s better if I was a boy!!
Mumma was treated like a queen,
She was now pampered like she has ever been!!
Papa was planning how everything should be blue,
but I was a girl and they had no clue!!
Days passed, nights passed and now few months were over,
but till now they didn’t know what was my gender!
mumma’s food was my food to eat,
the first music I listened to was her heartbeat!!
Anything can go wrong as stated in law of Murphy,
Soon I was in the ward of Sonography!!
I was happy and cozy in my mumma’s womb,
little did I know, I’ll be in a tomb..!!
Everybody was waiting for the news of wonder,
mumma’s heart was beating like thunder!!
“It’s a girl”! the nurse exclaimed,
papa was ashamed and mumma was blamed!!
They said we don’t want her, lets go for abortion,
It was my life and I wasn’t asked any permission!!
I consoled myself and kept quiet like a good girl,
I saw a pair of hands towards me swirl!!
All I remember is the thirsty look of the sharp knife,
Eagerly waiting to end my dear life!!
Mumma and papa were brave enough to see me die,
at least they would have kissed me a good bye!!
Friday, 2 February 2018
A trip to remember!
* One's destination is never a place, it's a new way of experiencing life **
A holiday to Andaman & Nicobar Islands is a once in a lifetime
experience. Andaman & Nicobar is full of amazing nature and
stunning marine life. Andaman Islands are a group of islands in the Bay
of Bengal and a Union Territory of India. The place was known as "Kaala Pani" because
of the Cellular Jail. This place became a tourist's spot only after
2000. Tourists can visit Andaman group of Islands as the Nicobar is out
of reach for any kind of tourism activities and we need government
permit to visit them.


My trip to Andaman was with my family in Oct 2016. Our flight was
from Chennai to Port Blair, the capital of Andaman. It was a 4 day trip
with stay and site seeing of Port Blair, Havelock island, Ross island,
Bartang island and Neil island. A typical day at Andaman begins with
sunrise as early as 5 AM in the morning and sun sets at about 4.30-5 PM.
There are 2 monsoons in Andaman and it rains anytime, just like
Bengaluru!!😁😁
Day 1- On our first day we covered all the tourist spots of Port
Blair like Chattam Saw Mill, Samudrika Naval Marine Museum, Rajiv
Gandhi Water Sports complex and The Cellular jail. Our day ended with
light and sound show in cellular jail, which illustrates the torture and
inhuman treatment of the prisoners. The vibe of cellular jail gives you
goosebumps!!
Day 2 - We were ready at 4 AM for our first mini cruise ride to Bartang
islands. It is famous for its beautiful beaches, mangrove creeks,
mud-volcanoes and limestone caves. You can see
thousands of parrots at Parrot Island in the evening. Naturally
limestone caves are magical and you will be amazed to see these natural
creations here. A jetty ride to the limestone caves from the island in
the rain was thrilling!!
Day
3 - Our third day was the best day of our trip to Havelock islands, a 2
hour cruise ride from Port Blair.. Fine white sand, turquoise blue
waters of exceptional quality and a lot of serenity were the hallmark of
this enormous island. It's a paradise for water sports lover. One can
enjoy scuba diving, snorkeling, bird watching, game fishing kayaking and
much more. I was waiting for this day since a long time as it was my
first "Scuba Diving experience". After a happy time at the beautiful
Radhanagar beach, we went to the Ocean dive centre for scuba diving.
They give the dive suit with oxygen cylinder followed by 1 hour of basic
diving training and instructions. You don't have to be a swimmer for
scuba diving. After getting trained in 6 – 8 ft. water, I was ready
for my first dive, both scared and thrilled.
There
is nothing like breathing underwater. You feel your throat dry up, and
try blowing air from your nose but you can’t. In the struggle of
breathing from your mouth, you can’t help but swallow the salty sea
water. And then you make a conscious effort to try and convince yourself
to breath from the mouth. What fascinated me thoroughly was the sound
of my own breath underwater, it was hypnotizing. When I entered in the
deep blue sea, my heartbeat was really fast and it took me few minutes
to relax myself under water. Scuba gives us the chance to unveil the
mysteries and the wonders of the environment which covers the majority
of our planet. It was really a great experience, to see the beauty of
sea wildlife, fish , corals etc. I also found Nemo( Clown fish) 😅😁 It
was totally a different world. It was so quiet. We were inside the water
for about an hour. When we came back I got to the real meaning of the
shayari from Movie "Zindagi Na Milegi Dobara" . Just Kidding, it happens
only in movies. But it does give you confidence to overcome your fears!
It was just one word "AMAZING".
Day
4 - The day was a bit relaxing as we didn't had to wake up at 4 that
day. We had only Ross island and Neil island to cover and it is a 20
minutes jetty ride from Port Blair. Ross island has Indian Naval Post
and a beautiful Light house. Ross Island has thick forests. To any
onlooker it may give the impression that it has no "life" — in the sense
that there is no human habitation. Spotted Deers and peacocks are
mostly found in the island and they just roam around casually with
humans, just like cats and dogs here.
Day 5 - We had a flight back to Chennai in the morning and we were upset and cribbing as we didn't want to leave Andaman. With heavy hearts we departed from Port Blair with extra baggage full of amazing memories.
Thursday, 28 December 2017
Move on..!!
Once in a lifetime everyone goes through heartbreak,
the pain of being abandoned, the pain that no one can take..!!
The feeling of being excluded from the rest,
the uncertainty of not knowing what’s next..!!
But the scars you hold are necessary,
you get them from the love that does not tarry..!!
Take time to think not only twice but many times over,
think of something that causes peace instead of anger..!!
Pain and hopelessness are only in one's mind,
They may be wiped out, so leave them both behind..!!
No one else can cure but, you yourself alone,
Understanding and helping yourself takes you out from that zone..!!
the uncertainty of not knowing what’s next..!!
But the scars you hold are necessary,
you get them from the love that does not tarry..!!
Take time to think not only twice but many times over,
think of something that causes peace instead of anger..!!
Pain and hopelessness are only in one's mind,
They may be wiped out, so leave them both behind..!!
No one else can cure but, you yourself alone,
Understanding and helping yourself takes you out from that zone..!!
Getting out of the blue is easier said than done,
But with you on your side, impossible thing is none..!!
Smile the sweetest smile and the world smiles too,
Cry the saddest moan, you shall find it's only you..!!
Smile the sweetest smile and the world smiles too,
Cry the saddest moan, you shall find it's only you..!!
You will wake up one day and this won’t matter anymore,
you will no longer weep for that closed door..!!
you will no longer weep for that closed door..!!
So, go on, live your life the way it should be,
let go of the sorrows and you shall be free..!!
let go of the sorrows and you shall be free..!!
I am Alone..!!
Alone with my thoughts deep and dry,with the slide show in my head passing by..!!
Alone in my room, alone in my bed,
but I am not alone in my heart or head..!!
Alone with thoughts I cannot share,
people might leave me, so I don’t dare..!!
I feel alone, in this world of pretense,
where people talk about things that don’t make sense…!!
Alone with people all around,
loneliness is the only thing I’ve found..!!
Alone in my sadness and my tears,
I’ve mastered the skills to hide my fears..!!
Now, I have no one to call my own,
amongst the crowd I walk alone..!!
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